I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I'd thought it'd be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
that nothing can save me
But it's the only thing that I have

i am assured of 2 Cs already... EE and programming!!

can you believe i'm actually addicted to this?? haha no la not addicted but its so fun to play with!
suitable for girls of all ages, appeal to bimbos like me!

before u know it, i survived 3 papers!! well not exactly survived, i almost died yesterday during programming

printf("Im dead, wat's new?\n");

if(result==B-)
printf("i will buy 4D.\n");

check THIS out... saw the link on someone's blog.. its really very very very very cool!!

exams starts tomorrow!! *freaks.. i'm so not prepared. 've slacking more as exam appraoch... what is wrong with me???

good news is: i've finally tuned back my bio clock! my sleeping time was 2pm - 11pm (woke up for dinner of cos) and yesterday i slept at 2am! not easy, had to NOT sleep at all for 1 nite to be really tired n bear with it till 2am..

Watched eye for a guy yesterday, its waaaayyy better than the first season! The 'Babe' has brains to start off with... Denise Keller is like THE ideal girl! pretty, smart, gorgeous, great personality,confident,sexy, outgoing... i love her!

denise keller 

the guys really cannot make it la... not good enough for her lor.. but i think the irish guy not bad, not because he's irish, but he's really pleasent. he doesn't try to suck up to her the way the rest did.. very natural. ok i just realised he's name is Shan. then the james guy can gth la... overconfident cocky *toot*. i bet $200 he will be the first wan OUT.

i really miss my jc days... went back to tj today to support the dancers in syf this morning, and boy, tj is rather differnet now... their PE t shirts are much nicer to start with, and there's this obstacle stucture like 7 storeys tall near the rock wall...

memories came flooding back to me the moment i stepped into tj this morning.. i only seem to appreciate them after entering uni.. like:

1) i miss taking the 730 bus to reach there just before the gate close at 740
2) staying back everyday after sch for dance behind the audi till 11+++
3) morning break time in the canteen copying homework!
4) positioning my seat such tt i get a good view of my crush n hope he notice me too
5) taekwondo training that marie and i always try to slack
6) running to lucky heights and east coast park
7) eating lunch at everywhere else but the sch canteen
8) bitching and gossiping with the dancers about the latest couple/scandal
9) convincing guys to join dance
10) trying to act cool with short skirts and overly tucked out shirts..
11) seeing how my class guys always bullying chiangliang
12) getting scolded by the teachers for sleeping
13) singing the college athem
14) being late for all my classes with the class..
15) finally.. dancing with the dancers..

SYF 2005

was so happy to see one of my sec sch juniors in tj dance, she was only in sec 1 when i was in sec 4 n now she's dancing for tj! anw back to syf:

National JC was the opening.. well wat can i say. they've always been getting golds every year and this yr shdn't be a diff.. REALLY GOOD BALLET technique.. but the dance was a tad too bland overall.

Victoria JC was not strong in technique, but as zaki puts it, he had to make them do more acting type of movements and high-energy dance to divert attention away from their lack in technique. BUT i tot, or rather everyone tot that they were really good! i was gaping as i watched... really good choreo!

Temasek JC very fairies-in-wonderland, the gers look like angels! much nicer compared to my batch's robotic aliens last SYF.. and they have MORE SKILLED dancers than my batch...i liked the piece, but wasn't as impresesed as vj.. praying hard we can squeeze a gold

St Andrew's JC this is sure gold with honours. all of us were sure of that halfway thru their dance already.. its quite like those sleek sharp comtemp pieces.. but its really good. and this poor guy fell on his chin this very morning and had 7 stitches done before coming back for the competition..

Raffles JC they seem to have an affinity with leaves and plants... last time use leaves, this yr use some noisy lalang thing and guys(yes they finally have guys) hold bamboo poles.. they are really neat comsidering that they have bout 40 ppl on stage tog at one time.. not very impressive tho..

talked to zaki during the interval, still as bitchy as ever, but we totally love his bitchiness! damn farnie... he's freaking out like mad la since VJ,TJ,SAJC are all sent by him..

anw results are out already... i was so eager to receive a call from rohai:

me: so wat did tj get???!!!!!

him: we got GOLD with HONOURS u know!? with SAJC!

me: *gasp* OHMIGOD!!! reallyyy!! oh man i can't believe it!! den wat about vj and rj?

him: they got gold onli..

me: wat? really? oh gosh.. (evil me is act quite happy)

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this piece of news made my day! my week also! don't think any of the dancers will be reading this but, i love u guys!! i love mr zaki too!! Thank you

0502

its already thursday, my accomplishments so far:

1) physics lecture 1-9
2) maths chapter 1 and 2

thats really way behind schedule, and i don't think i can ever finish revising by next week! how!?!

programming lab was unsurprisingly difficult for me.. at least its compilable.. if u guys can understand that..

later will be thai oral test.. wish me luck! can't wait to go home tmr to do serious mugging..

i hate mixed signals...

time to get ready for programming practical exam... i can already imagine going there to stare at the screen acting busy...and probably slit my wrists aft tt... so freaking cannot make it!

OH FREAK its been soooo long since i last blogged.... sorry man i'm still preoccupied with finding time to sleep eat n study.. tho i dun feel like i've studied much.. it felt like friday was the day that i actually started.

Anyway, this friday im going to watch SYF!! watch TJC strut their stuff at kallang theatre! Cant hardly wait, it seemed like yesterday when it was my batch doing syf, and as tjc's pioneer batch we clinched GOLD top 5!! haha.. we have a good choreographer of cos if not we wouldn't have done so well... MR ZAKI!! all his schools sure clinch gold la.. and he's sending in 6 schools this year!! no wonder he's so $$$$... always clothe in designer wear..

i love my baby!!

baby xuan xuan